Thursday, April 29, 2010

Giveaway! Check it out!





As I mentioned earlier this week. . . 
my friend Caroline is having a give-away on her website this Friday,
April 30th and I thought you all might be interested! 

If you visit her site and comment between 12 am and 12 midnight (EST) Friday, you'll be
entered to win a prize -- either a custom painted picture frame or
personalized hairbow holder. Your choice! So please visit
www.carolinecollie.com on Friday -- your visits support her ministry

and you might win something cute in the process!

Best of luck!!

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Beautiful Thoughts

This is a lovely post by my friend, Caroline, who is currently overseas with her family.  Caroline is also offering a giveaway later this week--you may want to check back on her blog on Friday! 

We are all so blessed.  Even when our life stinks, we can look around and immediately see people with more hurts and pains.  

When I sat at the table this morning with Lily, I smiled. 

I have a lovely family. 
I have a home that's filled with love.  
I have Jesus who loves me.  
I am blessed beyond measure. 

God is so, so good.  

Happy Birthday Dear Ayden, Happy Birthday to You!

Happy Birthday to Ayden!  We miss you and we can't wait to see you again!

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Personal Request

Please, please pray for my friend, Jill.

This is her recent post in her struggle with ALS.

I love her and I'm sad she's going through all of this.

Endings

The end of the school year is upon us.

I smile when I think about how nervous I was in August before things began.

How worried I was that I made the wrong decision, would the students like me, would I like the students, would I regret leaving the safety of public schools, yada yada yada

Some things have been exactly like I imagined them.

Some things have been harder than I expected.

Some things have hurt.

Some things have made me rejoice in the goodness of the Lord.

No matter what, God has been faithful.

He has loved on me greatly with this job--and I'm so blessed to be a part of something bigger than me.

I love my students--and I mean that with all sincerity.  They are like family to me, and I've only known them a short while.  It's so crazy because I usually wait a while before I let people into my heart.  However, I made a promise to myself that I would enter this job with a heart wide open--to embrace these students and love them and love on them during this crucial crazy period we refer to as college years.  

Loving people comes with hurt sometimes, and there have been moments I've scratched my head as I tried to get to know some of these students.  Sometimes I've been shocked by a moment of sincerity, when the facade crumbles and the real and beautiful soul finally shines through.

Loving people comes with immense joy as well.  I've laughed until I cried with some of my students.  I have celebrated their accomplishments.  I have jumped up and down in sound booths over their musicianship and ability to lead worship.

And I have had the privilege to know them.

Really?  I get paid to do what I would do for free???

Wow.

They make me laugh.
They make me cry with their hurts.
They keep me on my toes.
And they remind me why I love to teach.

It's a new dawn, it's a new day

Buster and I are holding down the fort this morning.  He's usually whining at 6ish which normally is ok as the girls and I are up for school, but weekends it's something else.  But, if I put him back in his cage he whines and I get annoyed, so it's just easier to make the coffee, check email, and enjoy the quiet.

Today is another busy day--church and then the CCF Senior Dinner.  Some of the alumni come back to serve the families and help set up/take down.  It's a nice event---I remember my senior dinner ahem 9 years ago.  2001--wow!  What's neat is if all goes to plan I'll graduate in 2010--0-1 and 1-0.  I'd love my license plate to say something like 01ECU10 or something equally cute.  Gotta support my Pirates in the land of the Pasquotank!

I have a final due tomorrow, have exam review with my theory students tomorrow, a quick rehearsal for graduation and Molly is going on her first field trip.  I'm excited---she's THRILLED!  She has been slightly under the weather this weekend and I've been loading her up with Benadryl.  Hopefully she'll be feeling better today.

I know this is short and slightly chaotic, but I'm going to enjoy the quiet for a few moments.  Happy Sunday!

Friday, April 23, 2010

At the end of the day. . .

I will choose Christ.

I will choose my family (those related by blood and choice). 

I will choose my sanity. 

The other things will fall into place in various orders.  

But I can only do one thing well at a time.

It sucks that I'm not as superwoman as I would like to believe.

I feel like a lot of things are left undone these days.

I don't know what else to do--other than just survive until graduation.

I feel like a bad mommy.

I feel like a bad wife.

I feel like a bad friend.

It's nothing personal.

I just don't have time to breathe--let alone call, think of the right thing to do, ask you about your day, make sure I'm involved in your world.

I'm being selfish, and I'm aware of this.

But, in being selfish I'm trying to protect my head.

And my panic level.

No one needs Amanda in the crazy house.

That would just further complicate matters.

I'm feeling the burn.

I feel like I'm going to crack.

I'm doing the best I can, but sometimes it's not good enough.

I'm sorry. 

Please try to understand.  

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Thoughts on Thursday

I admit things have been a little chaotic--and while I may have been absent from the blogging world lately, I've been busy enjoying my family and catching up around the house and with schoolwork.  But, here are my thoughts on Thursday afternoon:

1.  I love that we were able to get a good deal and purchase a new fridge and dishwasher!  Yea for Earth Day deals and tax cuts! :)  Chris got in line at 6am this morning to make sure we got a good deal for our new dishwasher.  Last night we ran into Billy at Lowe's and got a CRAZY deal on the fridge.  New energy efficient side-by-side fridge and dishwasher for under a $1000!  Hurray!

2.  I love Lily's new Princess and the Frog pjs--so sweet!  She loves that movie and is constantly singing "Almost There" around the house.  

3.  Today is my nephew's birthday and we are going to celebrate with dinner tonight.  This Saturday we are going to my niece and nephew's birthday party. 

4.  I have only 2 more guitar lessons left, a final project, and a final paper due before the end of the semester.  I can't believe it's almost over!  Then I will present my project mid-June and be DONE with grad school!!!

5.  Sometimes I am curious about starting my DMA, but I'm not sure where I would do that.  There aren't any local universities with the program in the area.  I am not thrilled with the idea of more school right this minute either. 

6.  I love this weather--nice and sunny.  Not too hot, not too cold, just right!

7.  I am still recovering from tour exhaustion.  I think I entered it with a deficit, and now I'm paying for it severely. 

8.  The doctor said Lily's eyes were better, but she will continue to wear the patch for 6 hours a day.  And she will probably continue to wear a patch until she's 6 or 7 years old.  And THEN we would consider surgery.  But, I'm thankful we caught this early and she's seeing a great specialist.  It could be worse. 

9.  Molly is getting ready to complete kindergarten.  It's so hard to believe that my little girl has finished her first year in school.  She has done so well and has had such a good time.  She loves her teacher and her classmates.  I'm so proud of her!

10.  This is my favorite tour photo:

2010 MACU Praise Team


Sunday, April 18, 2010

Reality

1.  Back to work tomorrow.  Only 2 weeks left in the semester!  WHAT?!!?!?  Where did this semester go?

2.  Please continue to pray for my friend, Jill.

3.  Graduate school is coming to a close.  I have a lot to do between now and then.

4.  It's good to be home.

5.  Lily has another eye appointment with her specialist this Tuesday.

6.  Buster is now sporting a man wrap to keep him from peeing in the house.  He's so embarrassed.  I would be, too.

7.  Our dishwasher exploded.  We're going to take advantage of the energy saving specials going on this week at many retailers.

8.  I love my job, but I have a feeling I'm going to love summer vacation as well!

9.  Disney is awesome!  I'm ready to go back with my cute kids and Christacular!

10.  Thank you for all of the prayers while I was away--they really helped! :)

Friday, April 16, 2010

Thoughts on Tour

Well, unfortunately due to lack of internet access I didn’t have time to do daily updates like I wanted.  Oh well—it was nice to spend time with my students and the church families that hosted us for the duration of the tour.  I certainly had a lot of fun getting to know my students more on a personal level.  I’ve learned many things about their lives, backgrounds, and spiritual levels.   They are such a special bunch to me and will always hold the position of my very first performance group at MACU.  We have a lot of funny moments and stories to share, and I’m hoping many of them will be posting on their blogs and Facebook pages about what they have seen and done. 

I’m going to try to recap this trip to the best of my ability.  If anyone reading this has thoughts to add, please feel free to share them in the comments area below! 

Friday, April 9thThis was our original departure date.  Unfortunately, we had a church cancel on us about 3 weeks prior and rather than asking another church to host us at the last minute, we decided to just start our tour one day later.  This was actually better because it gave my students an additional day to attend class before leaving for the week and time to take care of last minute tour items.  One of those items included moving the vans across campus closer to the dorms for the students.  Stephanie and Dave happened to be in the parking lot and they got a crash course on Amanda Avery driving 15 passenger vans.  All I will say is this:  my feet do not reach the pedals, therefore I had to sit way up in the seat.  I am (and I’m sure my students are) most thankful that Mike and Dave (and sometimes Erin) agreed to drive for the duration of the trip!

Something I haven’t shared is that our percussionist and his wife were unable to join us on the tour at the very last minute.  They had several things going on and finally made the decision not to go.  I got the phone call on Tuesday and my immediate thought was panic, but I immediately started praying and called Chris.  After a few moments I was ok and after some more prayer, a discussion with two of my students, Evan and Dave, and some more prayer, I made the decision to forgo trying to replace our percussionist and just do the tour without one.  We were hoping to practice on Friday, but then we remembered Oasis was this past weekend at the school and the timing was just not in our favor. 

I decided to spend the night because we were meeting at 7:00am on Saturday morning and I certainly did not want to leave Greenville at 5:00am before driving on the road all day.  I spent the night at the Fields’ and that was fun.  Dr. Fields is a professor at the school and his wife works with admissions.  It was nice to get to know them better, indulge in a little pizza and Dairy Queen (which Dr. Fields consistently denies his obsession with the place), trip to Walmart for last minute items for our trip, and spent the night watching a movie.  I must say that the staff at MACU has been very, very supportive through this whole adventure and I am so blessed to be working with them!

Saturday, April 10thI woke up with a lot of butterflies in my stomach as I was getting ready for the day.  I knew we had a long drive, I was really missing my kids, and I was in a constant state of prayer.  I arrived at the school, met the students, loaded the vans, and had a quick prayer with Dr. Perkins before heading out to Florida. 

We took two vans and I rode with Dave, Chris Matchem, Stephen, Asheton, Mary, Jared, and Stephanie.  Mike drove the van with Erin, Landon, Hassie, Cooper, and Evan and all the equipment.  It was a fun day of driving and Stephen was smart to bring the game “Apples to Apples.”  I don’t want to brag or anything, but I won. 

The day was very long and by the time we arrived in Jacksonville, Florida at Starratt Road Christian Church, we were more than ready to stop for the night.  We had a sound check in the church after a cookout at a nearby church family’s home.  It was a little crazy trying to get our sound right in a new facility without a percussionist, while the families that were hosting us were anxious for us to get done.  I will give a shout out to Mike—he handled the sound for us at each church as well as the whole school year, and he is very talented and blessed with the ability to hear and make the sound “work.”  I am so incredibly blessed to have had him in this class this year.  He manages to work through any system with excellence, as well as providing me with much needed comedic relief at the most stressful moments. 

That evening Erin and I went to stay at the home of a family from the church.  The wife was from Barbados and the husband from upstate New York.  They had the most adorable son and cute dog and it was a nice change from the van! 

Sunday, April 11th
We got up early the next morning for one more sound check, attend Sunday School, and prepare for morning worship at the church.  The biggest fear I had going into this service is that everyone would be so tired and dead, but the students were so alive and energetic and I was overwhelmed with joy during their worship set. 

This, this, THIS is why I love my job.  I actually get paid to worship with my students.  I mean, honestly, it doesn’t get much better than that!

The church fed us a pasta lunch and then we headed across town to Englewood Christian Church for our evening set.  We had about an hour to kill so we headed to a local mall for browsing and give students time to pick up some items they may have forgotten.  When we arrived at Englewood we were immediately greeted by some of the kindest people I have ever worked with in ministry.  Now, I do not want anyone to think that the other churches were less than kind, but this congregation welcomed us into their church and homes with grace and love.  We had a sound check, ate dinner, and then prepared for evening worship.  The students knocked it out of the park—WOW!  It was so, so good.  I couldn’t believe what can only be described as Holy Static (or Spirit!) in the room.  You could feel the presence of the Lord and we worshipped.  It was fantastic!

After the service we went to our respective homes and once again Erin and I spent the night at the same home.  We stayed with the most wonderful couple.  He was an elder in the church and she was involved in many groups and activities in the church.  They were so wonderful and so fun!  They even had an orange tree growing in their backyard!  Erin drew some really cute pictures on the posters we were using in the children’s chapel we were performing at the next morning, and Mrs. Moseley and I helped color. 

Monday, April 12thHappy Birthday to my sisters, Erin, and my sister-in-law, Stacy!

We all met at the church to lead the chapel for the 2-5 year olds at the church’s daycare.  They were so cute!  My students were so good with all of the small children—telling a story and acting it out, blowing bubbles, singing songs, and engaging with the children.  There were about 60 small children in the room and they were so precious!

Immediately afterwards we went to the local Christian high school and talked about MACU and making good decisions when selecting a college.  It was a nice change of pace and we were fortunate enough to spend the day outside in the school’s patio area. 

After that we went to a nearby shopping center—wonderful, wonderful, wonderful! It was fun looking around at different stores and seeing what my students were into.  Instead of shopping, Landon, Dave, and Evan went to a nearby skate park and had a great time.  I was most proud of Evan for getting the guys back on time so we could head back to the church for dinner.  We were fed again and then went to our host families for one more night.  Erin and I watched a movie with Mrs. Moseley because Mr. Moseley was attending the Mike Huckabee event at Florida Christian College.  It was a nice relaxing evening and I was very glad to just sit and relax!

Tuesday, April 13thWe met early at the church for prayer and then headed to Orlando for the day.  We checked into our hotel rooms and divided into our activities for the day.  Mike, Erin, Stephen, Mary, Jared, Stephanie, Cooper, Hassie, and I headed over to Universal Studios Islands of Adventure.  Dave, Landon, and Evan headed over to the Vans Skate Park, and Asheton and Chris met family and friends in the area. 

WHAT A GREAT DAY!  We had such good weather at the park and park attendance was very low so we rode every ride we wanted several times, normally with a 5-minute wait!  Most of the time it took longer to get through the queue area then to actually wait in line for the rides.  We had such a blast riding crazy rides like the Hulk and Jurassic Park.  It was so fun to just relax with my students and be with them in an out of school environment.  Being 30 years old makes it very interesting to work with college students.  Some of them are younger than me and others are slightly older.  It’s so funny because I hate to make the older ones call me by “Mrs. Avery” and it’s strange because I’m not much older than them.  So, most of them have resorted to calling me either “Avery” or “Amanda” and I really don’t care.  In fact, I told some of them to please just call me something nice.  I figure, in just a few years (some less than one) I will be in ministry with them and we’ll be equals.  So, for right now I respond to just about anything.  I may change my mind when I’m 40. 

That evening the group went to Hard Rock Café for dinner.  YUM!  We walked back to the hotel as we were only staying about a mile from the park.  I was so proud of my students—they were not obnoxious at the hotel or ridiculous in the park. 

Wednesday, April 14thWe all ate breakfast at the hotel—Holiday Express Suites Cinnamon Rolls and I are BFFs.  We then drove over to Downtown Disney and shopped and ate lunch at the Rainforest Café with Mike, Erin, Stephanie, Stephen, Asheton, and Landon.  I bought some really cute items for my girls—especially with Lily’s birthday coming up.  I also picked up trinkets for Rachel and Tyler since they have been awesome with our kids this year and we all know how obsessive Tyler Morgan is about all things DW!  I found an awesome little trinket for my sister as well—but I will not post all of these items as they all read my blog and I want them to be a surprise! J  I was really missing my girls, especially as I saw all the little girls getting dolled up in the princess boutique.  So sweet! 

After Downtown Disney, we loaded up and headed to Titusville (home of the Kennedy Space Center) for a performance at First Christian Church—and met up with the famous Steve Jackson.  Steve worked at MACU/RBC before me and many of the students were so excited to see him!  I really liked Steve a lot and he was super sweet to us.  He was very thoughtful and it was nice to see a familiar face (via Facebook for me!) while on the road.  The students enjoyed dinner (a fish fry!) and had another performance that night.  I could tell they were really tired and that the wear and tear of being on the road had gotten to them, but they did a good job.  Chris Matchem BROUGHT DOWN THE HOUSE with his message—fantastic!

That night Stephanie and I spent the night with two ladies who attended the church.  They were very gracious and had a lovely home—their screened back patio was HUGE with a pool, hot tub, and plenty of seating for events.  It was awesome!  They were so cute and I really enjoyed talking to them and Stephanie before we went to bed.  I was very tired and glad to hit the bed that evening!

Thursday, April 15thStephanie and I went to breakfast at Denny’s before meeting the group at the church for our early departure.  We spent all day on the road headed to South Carolina.  When we arrived we walked into the church and were a little apprehensive.  The church was small, had limited sound equipment, and no 3-pronged outlets.  However, Mike and I had a small meeting, we had a pep talk, and decided to forgo the sound equipment other than very limited condenser mic-age and 

It.  Was.  Fabulous.

Whoa, I cannot begin to express the sound, the worship, and the spirit of the room.  I will say this, totally risking Mike and I's street credit (Mike’s more so than mine) that we were even able to worship in the sound booth.  There may or may not have been tears involved in that sound booth.  I was so blown away.  I have been to many worship events and been involved in many concerts, but very few have made me feel like I did last night.  I wish, I wish, I wish I could convey to you the joy in that room. 

That night I was invited to stay at the choir director’s home.  Mrs. Ernestine has been the director at the church since 1954.  Her husband, Frank, had Alzheimer’s disease and it was sad to talk to him at times.  He was diagnosed 4 years after they married (second marriages for both) and for the past 8 years she has cared for him.  They lived in a beautiful home on the river and I cannot imagine a more peaceful place to live.  Her first husband died in his early 40s of a heart attack leaving her with 9 and 11 year old boys. She credits it all to God—and both of her sons are currently ministers.  One is a minister in Jacksonville, FL and the other is the senior minister at Savannah Christian Church.  

Yes.  That Savannah Christian Church.  

She is a great woman of God and has an incredible story.  She also has been a public speaker for year and even spoke one year at First Church in Washington, NC!  She was most gracious and kind—and it was so sweet to see her take care of her husband.  I had a terrible headache last night and after taking a Tylenol PM I was out for the night.  

Friday, April 16th: Today we met at the church at 7:00am for breakfast and then got on the road.  We are so excited to get home (as I am currently putting this blog down in Word so I can post when I get home) and I love our van.  We’ve been jokingly calling it the Perfect Van all week because we have such a good blend of personalities.  We’ve laughed, talked, snoozed, and had a great time.

Right now we are filling up the vans with gas and Landon is running around in the parking lot with a zebra Snuggie on.  Oh dear. 

My final thoughts on this tour—I have so many.  First, it has been hard to be away from my family and I missed them more when I was in the homes or around small children.  However, the families really were good comfort for me.  They were such an encouragement on being a better mommy, wife, and friend.  I’m ready to see my family, but it wasn’t as terrible as I thought it would be. 

Second, this trip has reaffirmed why I love my job and my students so much.  I can’t tell you how blessed I am to work with these students and future leaders of the church.  I adore them. I adore my job.  I mean it—I really, really, really love my job. 

Finally, God is so good.  I have had every prayer answered, and when they weren’t answered in a way I imagined; God gave me something even better in return.  I began praying for this tour last summer—praying for students with a heart for ministry and music.  Students who would get along and love one another and would take me in, as the new music professor, who can’t begin to fill the shoes of the Queen, and that our tour would go smoothly.  God is so, so good all the time. 

So, I wrap this up with a Top Ten List for my students who may be reading this.  If you weren’t on the trip, you may feel the need to pray for us, but trust that these were the moments that I look back on and smile. 

Top 10 Moments (which may eventually find their way on the shirts)

10. “I DON’T CRY!”
9.   “Is Landon sleeping?”
8.  Host Families: Words of Wisdom
7. “Are those bubbles coming out of your mouth?”
6. “Don’t get it twisted!”
5. The Janki Store, South Carolina
4.  Ka-trina
3. “He Thinks You’re Sexy”
2. “Shhhhhhhhhh!”
1. Chaka Kahn, the Great Mongolian Leader

Students, I adore you.

MACU is a great school.

God is good. 

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Showing Off

You need to visit Lindsey's blog to see my Molly in action.

Thanks, Lindsey--I've really missed my girls and it was so good to hear her voice! :)

Short Update

This will be a quick update--tour is going well.  My students have sang so well and our churches have been more than gracious!  We have had a lot of good memories and laughs along the way.  I've learned a lot about my students and I love them more and more (in a totally platonic, I don't date my students, I'm not trying to go to jail sort of way).  

We've performed at two churches, visited at a local Christian childcare and school, hit Universal Islands of Adventure (because I couldn't do Disney without my children and lerve).  We're headed to Downtown Disney this morning (doesn't count as a real Disney experience--and I'm buying stuff for my girls) before driving an hour to our next performance tonight.  We have a long drive tomorrow to South Carolina, performance tomorrow night, and then we're headed back to NC on Friday.  

Please continue to pray--it has been hard to be away from my girls.  Chris has held down the fort and while things have been a little crazy (dishwasher broke, Lily has wet the bed, Buster peed on Molly's bed, etc), everything is good at home.  We performed at a 2-5 year old chapel and there was a little girl with cute pink glasses--looked very much like another little girl I happen to love and miss.  I teared up for a minute--and then asked Twine to say something mean to make me laugh and all was fine.  

Please also pray for the students.  They have done so well--minimal drama (at least none I'm aware of), performed well, and they have really had a good time.  Tonight and tomorrow will be the hardest.  We're very tired and tempers can flare when you are exhausted.  I hope they will remain focused and enjoy the last two performances.  I'm so proud of them--they have come so far!

Please pray for safe travels--we'll be on the road a lot.  

Please pray for safe return to our families. 

Please pray for the churches, their members, and the host families we're staying with.  So far we have been blessed with some wonderful places and faces. 

Well, time to meet everyone downstairs so we can head out for the day!  See my local people soon!

Friday, April 9, 2010

Tour Update (already!)

My student, Stephanie, has posted a pre-tour post!  Check it out! :)

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Ease on down, ease on down the road. . .

Well, tomorrow is T-Day (or Tour Day).  We don't officially leave until Saturday morning, but I'm working all day tomorrow and can't come home since we are leaving Elizabeth City so early Saturday morning (7:00am meet time).  We will be gone until next Friday and then Chris will be leaving for an overnight convention on Friday and will be back on Saturday.  I won't see my lerve for well over a week.

I have a lot of things on my plate today--pack, prepare for guitar lesson, homework, and snuggles with my family.  I'm feeling pretty jittery and my head is pounding already, but I really think it's from the Claritin and the attack of the killer pollen.  I'm not loving these seasonal allergies!

Hopefully I will have time (as well as possibly some students) to post and blog throughout our trip.

Lots to do, not a lot of time to do it--your prayers and encouragement have been much appreciated!

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Thoughts on Tuesday

1.  I'm vacillating between calm and not calm in regards to leaving my children during the tour.  I keep praying during those dark moments, trying to find appropriate scripture, and loving those peaceful moments that follow.

2.  I love the south.  I love that men tip their hats at you.  I love that people do the 1-2 finger lift off their steering wheels as they pass you in the road.  I love the warmth of spring--but maybe not the pollen.

3.  I have vacuumed an enormous amount of pollen this morning from leaving our windows open the past few days.  I would show you a picture, but I'm too embarrassed!  It looks like I haven't vacuumed in over a year!  EWW!  As much as I love fresh air, I closed my windows this morning and turned on the A/C.  My head cannot take the pollen that has coated everything in my house.

4.  Buster is at the groomer.  I love him when he comes back all cut and with his cute bandana!

5.  I have a lot of homework to do.

6.  I have a long to-do list.

7.  I like playing Memory with my family.  Lily is getting pretty good!

8.  Lily has discovered she loves all things Disney.  She is begging to visit the castle.  I hope she gets her way!

9.  I am ready for summer vacation in the worst way!  I can't believe this may be the first summer in a while that I'm not changing jobs, having a baby, or working on graduate school.  HURRAY!

10.  I am still on a total lemon and cilantro kick (not at the same time, mind you).  My little cilantro plant has provided us with some yummy flavoring recently and I should really look into planting a lemon tree. I have been through so many bags this spring as I'm upping my water and decreasing my caffeine.  Yum, yum, yum!  I LOVE LEMONS!!!!

Finally, our teens from our church are on their Spring Break trip this week--Chris Woolard has a few videos on the ccteens website so you can check out everything that they are doing.  I'm so proud of them!

Happy Tuesday!

Monday, April 5, 2010

Laundry List of Prayers

I am so glad I had the day off today!  It was nice for our family to be home together and do Avery things like:

1.  Go to Lowe's. :)
2.  Work on home improvements
3.  Play outside in the sprinkler
4.  Take naps
5.  Eat "whatever" for dinner
6.  Dance and sing and play


Working on homework and laundry are at the top of my to-do list for tomorrow. I leave at the end of the week (either Friday or Saturday--most likely Friday) for our tour.  I'm excited and sad and ready and not ready.  I'm thinking of asking my students who also blog to guest blog while we're gone so we have many points of view and stories on the trip (what do you think?  Mike, Erin, and Stephanie?)

I am so conflicted as a mom.  I've been trying to spend as much mommy-kid time with my girls.  I really want to soak them up--and these awful thoughts like, "What if this is the last time you see them?" have been creeping in my brain.

I know these thoughts are not from God.  

Please pray specifically for this trip:

1.  We share the love of Christ through song to people who need to hear (or maybe need to be reminded)
2.  Safe travels
3.  Smooth schedule
4.  Good worship (no sound issues, good blend/balance, no screen issues, no instrument/vocal issues, no directing issues)
5.  No stress--at least not the debilitating kind that makes my throat constrict and my head hurt.
6.  Safe return
7.  That our loved ones are safe while we are gone
8.  That our students and I get along well with one another--I don't need no drama on this trip!
9.  The churches are welcoming and kind--and that we leave a good impression of Christ and of the school.
10.  The hosting families and hotels who are housing us

I would be lying if I said I wasn't scared a little.  This is a big deal for me--and while I'm delighted at the opportunity, I'm scared, too.

So, please pray, pray, pray for this trip.

And for me.

And for my family.

And for my students.

Thank you very much.

Sunday, April 4, 2010

It Ain't Easter

Without some obligatory photos!  

Notice my children cannot smile in the SAME photo:






After church we went to Chocowinity for the Brickhouse/Avery/Hill/Jones/Woolard/Allen/Aideuis extravaganza.  Oysters, cakes, picnic food, and an egg hunt for the kids:


Posing for the pictures--staring the eggs down in the yard.


Lily with her "Let's go!" face on!




Molly found a lot of eggs!

Lily found flowers. 




Do you see my child?


Hard hunting means it's time for a nap in the hammock with Daddy. 



Happy Easter!

Saturday, April 3, 2010

There are Friends

Who love you.

Who laugh with you.

Who cry with you.

Who share your secrets.

Who roll their eyes at you.

Who inspire you.

Who encourage you.

Who scold you.

Who praise you.

Who pray with you.

Who mourn with you.

Who dance with you.

Who want you to be the best "you" you can be.

And, for all of my friends, I'm truly grateful.

Thank you for being real.

A Foggy Day, in Simpson Town

I love that I can now eat in my kitchen.  Recently we moved our dining room table into the kitchen to facilitate family meals at the table.  I am so proud that since we have done this we have not eaten in front of the television or in the living room.  Yea!  I like being able to see out of my windows in the morning as I drink my coffee and catch up on blogs and emails before I start my day.

One week from today I will be headed out with the praise team to officially start our 2010 tour to Florida. I'm looking forward to it in some ways--spending time with the students, traveling, visiting churches, worshipping with new congregations.  I'm not looking forward to it for two specific reasons:  being away from home and my family for a whole week and trying to complete my schoolwork for graduate school.

A week is serious business when you are completing your capstone (that's the official name of my final project.  We do not have a thesis--we complete this mega project on steroids with a long paper and annotated bibliography and powerpoint--and then present it before a panel of the music ed faculty for 30 minutes.  We also have to take a written exam that takes most people 3 hours to complete.  I have to apply for graduation about mid-May and it usually takes a month before your time is scheduled--so mid June is when it arrives.  I have to be DONE with my work when I apply in May--I have to submit everything and then wait to present.  I can also use that time to study for the written exam.)

I remember a year ago when I was going through all my precariousness being so upset about time away from my family.  I'm trying to keep this in perspective.  I'm not dealing with what Jill's dealing with.  I'm not dealing with what Beth Ann or Caroline are dealing with.  And I certainly haven't been involved in a shady hold-up like my pal, Neal. While my situation doesn't have quite the threat level that theirs may possess, my time away from my family is still a major struggle for me.  I hate, hate, hate being away from my family.

Thursday night, Rachel and I were talking about the perils of motherhood.  No one understands (except another mommy) how your whole world is affected by your children.  Your whole life gets wrapped around the idea of taking care of your children and making sure you're around to take care of your children.  It can become a serious issue--sometimes to the point of craziness.  I trust God, but sometimes I want to handle it myself instead of just letting Him hold on to it for me.  So, when I'm in my moments of "I don't want to leave my babies!!!" I just keep praying, "Lord, You know my deepest desire is to be with my kids--be there for them and see them grow up.  I know Your ways are not my ways, and I'm going to trust that You've got this in control."

Most of the time I feel pretty confident in those words.

Because of sweet babies like Ayden and Paxton, I am reminded how God's timing is not always our own.  I make a point to treasure my moments I do have as much as possible.

This stress of work and school and life has really gotten to me physically this week.  I had a migraine on Thursday as I tried to pull everything together in my head.  This is rare--I think I've only had 1-2 beforehand.  Once right after Molly was born when dealing with some major PPD issues and then once while I was pregnant with Lily (Lindsey, do you remember the day we were going to host everyone for breakfast and Molly tumbled down the steps and we had to make an emergency trip to the dentist--I really think it was the 23rd or 24th of December?  That morning I had a terrible migraine in addition to all the other fun).  Thursday I got up and started trying to do everything at once--run laundry, get Molly off to school, feed Lily, work on homework, practice guitar, get ready for Awards Day at Molly's school, run errands with Chris--and then my two friends in graduate school were coming into town and we had a long conversation about the items we must complete before May, and Chris started compiling our tax items to give to his aunt who is a CPA, who is kind enough to do them for us.

All of the sudden my head felt like I had been punched with knives and my eyesight got all wiggly (I don't know how else to describe it).  Chris was asking me questions and I couldn't think of how to answer them in complete sentences.  I felt so sick like I was going to throw up and I was seriously struggling.  Chris made me take a nap with Lily and went to Awards Day.  I woke up several hours later and still felt weak in my arms.  I was a mess at my guitar lesson later--I couldn't get my fingers to cooperate and stay on the frets.  I still felt a little crazy at praise team practice, and I felt like I couldn't get my words out 100% when speaking.  Ugh.

I have a lot on my plate--and sometimes I want to hang a sign on my door or around my neck that says, "If it can wait, if it is not life or death, if it is trivial or annoying--PLEASE WAIT UNTIL MAY!"

I am trying to get caught up this weekend around the house and get ahead on my school work.  Luckily I have Monday off (and I guess Tuesday if you want to count that since it's not a normal working day for me).  I need to switch out some winter clothes with summer (since it has magically arrived overnight!), work on some cleaning, work on some work, and try to relax as much as possible.

Happy Easter!

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